Walking the plank of shame!

Some how in all my blogging and web page setting up madness I deleted a post.  Oh well let me begin by saying this feels oh so like I am walking the plank of shame.  See today is my 8th day on this juice fast quest.  But Arrrghhhh ye did fail ye challenge of a juice fasting of 60 days, so he who fails shall walk the plank of shame to his death by gruesome shark infested waters.  Ha not so fast stupid head, I think I did quite will even lasting this long to be sure to be sure.  And for some strange reason I should be thankful because if I went any longer who knows how long my crazy pirate shantys would go on for??????  Its plain and simply just too dammed hard to fast for that long with 3 hungry kids and a husband to feed, bills to pay, lifes stresses and what not.  I mean this millionare goes on a juice fast for 60 days because he has no wifey, no kidlets and no real worries apart from his disease of course and being overweight which I can fully empathise with.  But he wasn't there tonight when the weather turned a wintery shade of gray, the seagulls were drooling, the passing pups were drooling at the smell of those god damm onions on the BBQ.  Well people I snapped.  My will power of all will powers just slapped me straight up in the face and said, GIRL EAT A SAUSAGE I AM LEAVING YOU.  So I did.  But you know what I just can't feel guilty because I think setting the bar so high actually got me to achieve my 8 day juice fast.  Perhaps I would not even made day 1 if it was only a week?  Who knows, and who cares I am not a failure for trying thats for sure.  And  it looks like my skin rash has finally healed, so something must have worked.  Perhaps I could go on a juice fast for a week every month and see how that affects my more serious polymyalgia.  It might take a little longer but hey I think its far more do-able and realistic, especially for us Mums.  I don't want to embark on a journey back to me and not actually get there, I want to this really work, I want good health and deserve it.  And I want it to work so that maybe just maybe I can eventually help someone else too.  That would be really good.  So I am glad to make little mistakes along the way because it actually means I am learning.